Getting Married

Before you think of anything else, let me begin by saying..

I am not yet getting married. Chill. Title lang yan. This is merely me, talking about “getting married” in general.

I am turning 24 in a few days, and I remember myself about 8 years ago, telling myself that I want to get married by 24. But now that the big 2-4 is coming, I can tell you straight up, that I am not yet ready for marriage.

(Take note, not yet.;)

For some, 24 is just the right age, or the youngest you could get married. I actually agree with that, that’s the reason why I though about that crazy idea 8 years ago.

I have friends that are already married by 24, and not because they got pregnant. Like, legitimately, got married because they are ready.

Dennis and I often get this question: “Di pa ba kayo magpapakasal?”, from friends, colleagues, even family. Just last night, one of his friends asked us this. I was surprised by the question that my eyes widened, and we didn’t even answer the question.

Don’t get me wrong, its not that I don’t want to get married with Dennis, its just that I am not mentally, financially and emotionally ready.

Sometimes I find myself afraid. Afraid that I might never be ready. Or baka naman pag ready na ko, ayaw na niya, something like that. Haha. #paranoid

I don’t know when I will find myself ready. I actually want to have my own house first before I settle down. Yung, ready na lahat, magpapakasal ka nalang? Your mind, soul, body, emotion (and bank account!!!) should be ready.

I might be pushing myself too much, or maybe its because we don’t talk about it. It’s like a taboo topic in our relationship. Not because we don’t want to end up with each other, but actually, because of me. I try to avoid the topic as much as I could. Maybe something about my past that made me afraid to make plans together for our future.

But you know what, I think I am getting there. Maybe 24 is the age where you prepare yourself for marriage.

Maybe.

Who knows? :)

To my future husband: hopefully you already started saving up, to buy a house, to maybe build our own business. I hope you are preparing yourself too. ;)

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Yesterday, Dennis and I were texting. We were both in the middle of work, and he was telling me all about how he is nervous on his current post, that he is so afraid of making mistakes. I noticed that what’s going on, is that he is putting too much pressure on himself that was not just going to help him in the long run.

I suddenly realized that my usual “pabebe” mood should not be in place right now while he is in the process of adjusting to his new work. This would not help him, and that, whenever we are together, it should all just be happy times.

So I asked him for a dinner date! I told him I just realized that it has been a long time since we went out on a date with just the two of us together. The past 4-5 movies we watched were with family and friends, and most of our lunch/dinners out are with our friends. We still eat out together but it’s usually just along the way home. Like fast food, and stuff.

We actually don’t mind going out with any of our friends. We enjoy it, to be honest. My friends became his friends too, and I think that’s cute. We also enjoy going on double/ triple dates with our couple friends. (I can’t help but remember that episode in How I Met Your Mother, where Lily and Marshall were on the hunt of finding a new couple to hang out with. Haha.)

So anyway, after work, we decided to go to Trinoma and eat at our favorite burger joint, 8Cuts. To our surprise, it was closed for a company event. :( And I was really looking forward for the chocolate milkshake. We ended up at Gerry’s Grill, and had our favorites, Sisig and Kare-Kare.

It was such a nice evening, we just talked like we usually do, but I actually felt it was special. Since we didn’t really get to do this for a long time.

I had been so busy at work, and he is always waiting for me, for I usually extend work hours. That by the time I clock out, all time we have left is just to go home. No time left to hang out.

I have said it before, I admire his patience. I don’t have the same patience he has. Some girls wish to have a guy that would wait for them without complaining, and I am so blessed that I have someone like that.

We have been together for 4 years (including the dating period), yet he still amazes me every day. He has been nothing but a blessing to me.

Babe, if you are reading this, please know that I appreciate all your efforts, the things you do for me. :) You are awesome and a precious gift from God. I love you so much! ♥

xx

Thank You

Lord, I know sometimes I wonder what could’ve been.
And during these times You just talk to me.
Remind me why I left.
How I had enough.
Thank You for reminding me of how blessed I am now.
Thank You, for even though I can’t help but look back sometimes, You still remind me that it’s done.
And not because of me.
Because it is just really not part of Your plan.
Things are really so different now.
People change.
And I don’t want to be with people like that.
With so much pride.
I already have so much of that in myself.
Having another person in my life with that much pride will just make my world implode.
You make a perfect balance.
You always remind me of this.
Thank You.

1 Year of Love, 2 Years of Friendship

We met Feb 18, 2012 and was officially together Feb 18, 2013… and the story goes on. <3

Funny how time flies when you’re having fun… and when you’re in love. My bebe and I just celebrated our first anniversary as a couple and it was the most romantic, ever.

I prepared something for him which I started preparing a month before our anniversary. I’ve put in a lot of effort into it and really want it to be something really memorable for him.

I prepared a box with a jar of 356 MnM’s for 635 days together, an “exploding” mini box of our pictures together from the past 12 months, a mini box of 52 reasons why I love him, for 52 weeks together, then 1 letter for 1 year standing strong. Later on you’ll see pictures of it.

As for him, he serenaded me the Sunday before, because his “partner-in-crimes” would have work by Tuesday (which is our anniversary day). It was really a surprise and I couldn’t do anything better and top that! :)

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He sang right in front of my house with a cake and with a lot of our friends that he tagged along. I was almost going to cry if only Cupcake, my puppy, went outside and barked at them. Hahaha!

So here are the photos of our celebration… I apologize in advanced if this posts gets filled with photos. :P

 

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We were supposed to celebrate our anniversary at Tagaytay, unfortunately, certain circumstances just won’t allow us to at that time, so we settled at Quezon City Circle. Why not? It’s near, no entrance fee, and there are a lot of activities you can do there too! :)

We had our late lunch at Max’s inside the park.

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What I wore: Sheer top from Folded & Hung, high-waist shorts from Nine (Glorietta), bag from Follow Your Heart. :) I just wanted to wear something comfortable but not too simple. Something I can still move into and not worry too much how I’d look.

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And this is my gift! Very highschool peg ba? :P

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This is Dennis looking and reading thru the exploding box. <3

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Here, he is going thru each paper with a reason why I love him. He answered everything with “Syempre naman!”, “Ikaw pa??”, “Syempre love kita eh!”, “Awwwww?”, with tears (of joy) in between. :”) 

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I also brought him this cute little piggy stuff toy, because it reminded me of him when I saw it hahaha!

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After our “gift-giving” or as I prefer “love-giving” moment, we went go-karting. Hahaha, we really wanted to drive one with two seats but they don’t have that so we just drove by each other and talked, or race against each other. Good thing we’re the only ones in the track!1779700_4035270695978_244343604_n

It was just really simple, but the happiest moment we shared. After all, it is our 1st anniversary together that we are celebrating, and what’s important is that we are together. Other couples don’t have the chance to be together at special occasions, because they live in different parts of the world, and that’s hard. But the Lord has blessed us to let us be together in normal days and special occasions, and  for that, I am thankful. :)

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If I ever have to enumerate things that make me love him more everyday, a day would’ve passed by and I’m not finished yet. He has certainly been the best brother, bestfriend and boyfriend to me. I am just so blessed.

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HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY MY DARLING! AND HAPPY 2 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP! <3

Things I Want to Say to…

THE 30 DAY BLOG CHALLENGE DAY 12: Things you want to say to an ex.

10.8.05. Sorry for being inconsiderate. I know I’ve hurt you a couple of times in the past years, even after the break up. Sorry for not breaking it face to face. I don’t have to courage to do so. I’m ashamed of myself, that’s why. But thank you for still being nice. You are one of the kindest people I knew. Thank you for still loving me until a few years back. I feel sorry that I can’t give that love back. Stay loving and romantic. I know you’re happy now, and I couldn’t be happier for you. Continue making her feel like a princess, she deserves it, and you deserve someone who loves you back, the same way you loved me. You’re a wonderful person. You’ll always be my soulmate. :)

 

05.20.08. Hmm… I have a lot to say… I think… Well, I think we’re okay now, right? First I want to say sorry for being childish a lot of times during and after the relationship. Can you blame me? I was young, and in love, and was left, alone. We were almost perfect, you know? We had the same interests, we didn’t try that hard to be able to ride each other’s trip. Oh well. Sayang lang. The next time, make sure you treat her like a princess, not just call  her a princess. That’s two different things. I also wanted to say, I waited for you. I guess, we’re not really meant for each other. I even made a list of things and stories to tell you once we get back together. Haha. Clingy lang. I want you to know that I thought about you every day, wished you’d come back, and things like that. But don’t worry, I’m okay now. That’s why everything is said in past-tense :) I still wish we could be good friends, that kind where we’d talk about anything. I’d like to forget every negative thing about us and keep the good ones. You are one of the most significant part of my story… Friends? :)

Love Notes

He’s funny.

He’s lovely.

His smile is as bright as the stars in the sky.

He walks oh, so perfectly.

His eyes are full of wonders.

His hair is always perfectly arranged.

I love the smell of his father’s perfume on him.

 

I love how he’s always mused about the wonders of the world.

I love how he cares for everyone.

He has that special charm that always gets me hooked.

I love how his rather corny jokes still makes me laugh.

I love he always tries and finds a way to make me smile.

 

He has the best pick up lines.

Every good morning and good night text messages are always different.

I love how he calls me “Baby“, “My Princess” and “My Special Girl“.

He always, always makes me feel beautiful.

I love how he constantly assures me of his love.

I love he assures me that everything will be alright.

He tries his best to not be mad at me.

He’s the cutest whenever he’s trying to act sulked.

 

I really appreciate him always picking me up at work.

He asks me to text him but he ends up texting me first.

He doesn’t hide it whenever he’s feeling giddy.

The tight hugs he gives.

 

I might have already given a lot of things, but I will never run out in finding things I have to thank for from you.

You give me a lot of reason to love you.

 

I’m the luckiest girl alive. Thank you for staying by my side. :)
<3

One of the “Firsts”

April 25, 2013, 2:41PM Manila time. 

I’m at work, and still on the middle of something. I just remembered this one thing that I would never ever want to forget… It was the first time Dennis held my hand. Haha, I really find this cute.

I think it was March, 11, 2012? Not sure if that’s the exact date though, but it was the Metro Manila Pep Rally for ILC Aklan.

Mass is ongoing. He’s sitting beside me and Roxanne. Of course, at some point in the mass, we will sing the “Our Father” and everyone will hold hands. About a minute or two before that, after he knew that “that” will be the next song everyone will sing, he slightly turned his back on me, opened his bag, fetched his little cologne bottle up, and sprayed some on his hands.

I thought he’ll eventually spray some on his shirt, but he didn’t. He just sprayed the cologne on his hands, and rubbed them together. Ako naman, nawala naman sa isip ko na “Our Father” na pala yung susunod. Then when the officiating priest announced that we’ll sing the prayer that Jesus Christ taught us, and everyone (including us) held hands, it struck me, “Aaah, kaya pala nagpabango sa kamay! Hahaha.” I looked at him, but his eyes are closed, while solemnly singing the song. Napailing ako. Hahaha, I was smiling the whole time. :) Then after everyone sang, he squeezed my hand gently before finally letting go of it.

Until now, he doesn’t know that I noticed what he did. Haha. Ang cute cute mo, Dennis! Hahaha.

It’s really the little gestures, the little gestures, that are unforgettable. <3

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