I am so disappointed with myself.
People wouldn’t think twice to trade places with where I am now yet I don’t value it that much.
Bad habits die hard.
“Habitual”… “Verbal Warning”
I am a very considerate person. So I am kind of confused to whom I really feel disappointed…
To myself? For not being able to discipline myself…
Or to them, that don’t even see the effort, time and sacrifices I did for the past 6months…
It’s so hard. Makes me feel like I don’t belong. That somewhere, there is a place that would accept me as I am, and value all my efforts and sacrifices.
I am a very good employee. I know that for sure. I live to the core values of my company. I give input, I reach goals, meet deadlines and work harmoniously with my colleagues.
I have taken so much responsibility and they are just putting even more on my work load. I overcome it… yet they want more.
Dang it. So confusing.
Sorry for ranting. Its just my way to release the riot in my head. I still love my job and my company though.